As I opened the refrigerator and found my keys that have been missing for the last 3 hours, I thought... it's time to talk to someone. I think I am losing my mind.
Having lived with ADHD for 47 years, I am used to being confused, feeling overwhelmed, forgetting where I left things, struggling to keep up with the daily schedule. But lately, it seems to be getting worse. I still have all of these ADHD symptoms but they seem to be magnified. I am more confused than ever. I am so overwhelmed, I just feel like giving up and shutting down.
That's not like me. I always feel overwhelmed but I always persevere. I have been proud of the coping skills I have developed and the fact that even when things are difficult, I keep on going. I fight the good fight.
But today as I pull my cold keys from the fridge ... I just want to hide from it all. This is when I know it is time to talk to someone.
Thank goodness my doctor has an opening. I attend my appointment (of course I show up late) and discuss everything that has been going on with me. This is when I hear the words that just seem like a cruel joke, "Well Kate, it appears that perimenopause may be exacerbating your ADHD symptoms."
Are you kidding me? This is so not fair. You are telling me that as my hormones change I am going to feel like I am losing my mind AND I am going to sweat profusely on top of it? I am woman hear me ROAR. Yes, really, ROAR. I feel like screaming. I cannot believe this.
My doctor goes on to tell me that as estrogen levels decrease, cognitive function may decline. "At times you may even feel as if you are suffering from dementia."
This is not happening.
Since my meeting with my doctor, I have read even more on the subject. This is definitely "a thing".
This is one quote I found that explains what may be happening:
“Because a lack of dopamine is a hallmark sign of ADHD, this additional change in dopamine can lead to even greater difficulties with concentration and focus,” said Stephanie Sarkis, Ph.D.,
So I guess this is a long way of saying to you, my readers, I hope you have enjoyed reading my past "Memoirs of an ADHD mom". I apologize for my upcoming posts that will probably be late and incoherent. This is what happens when you have ADHD and perimenopause. Good luck ladies and if you have any tips to share with me - please do! (Even just share a funny story with me so I don't feel like I am alone in this. All we can do is laugh.)